And another thing.

I miss the camaraderie of a good play with a tight cast. Nothing compares to the feeling of working hard to accomplish something together, where everyone trusts and relies on each other equally, and you deliver an awesome performance and the audience is noticeably impacted. You enjoy all aspects of the show, from getting ready together beforehand to hanging out backstage to partying afterwards. When the show is over you are sad, and you miss those people that you spent so much time with for a month or two.

I'm starting to realize that until I form or join a theatre company, this may not be my experience in theatre. At least not in Los Angeles. So far I've found that it's flat out hard to find people who care as much about being in a play as going to audition for a carpet-cleaning commercial. It's hard to find people who are willing to make a commitment to be there the night of every performance, even if they have to give up something that was previously scheduled. It's hard to find people who are good actors as well as being able to listen and follow directions without questioning the director.

I am used to smart actors who care about their work and the aspect of being an ensemble. I miss that. There were a few other women in this past show who seemed to be of a similar background. But we were certainly in the minority. And we were the ones who were on time.